Take me home

The splendor of the setting sun crosses my mind…the soothing, warm, sultry winds from the Ganga blows across my face...I am standing motionless…Lost in thought…My eyes are searching…Someone…Perhpas a known face.

I am standing against the fading light near Princep Ghat…it wears a deserted look…a bihari couple holding hands stroll nearby…few boatmen engaged in talks…chirping birds…distant faded hawker calls…few evening walkers in brisk motion.

Its daybreak…time to be in home.

I look towards the magnificent Hoogly Setu…a mammoth structure…the sun is just the behind the bridge creating an intriguing pattern of lights and shades around the staircases leading to the Ganga…slow undulating waters of Ganga…slowly unfolding lazy another evening…no hurries…it is very quiet…

This is Kolkata.

I am thousands of miles away from my self styled exile...I am back to my city…city I belong to…City which taught me to live…to love…to give ADDA...

Clicking sound...someone is taking photograph…
A familiar voice…Rajat spoke “R koto chobi tulbi?”…“How many photographs will you take?”…Rajat… dost o ka dost …extrovert…lonely…hidden behind his broad smile…I can see faded memory…sullen…

This innocuous remark is aimed at the very core member of the Bangalore Group…Niladri… a perfect Bangal…great cook… good footballer…great foodie…unofficial mascot of Garia… always wears a smile under any circumstances….replies “Notun mobile…tai” “New mobile...that’s why!!”

Arijit has vanished again…he is one of our best buddies since college…prankster…perfect friend…trying his level best to capture snap of running train near Princep Ghat station...a narrow…old station...memories of past hung all over it.

Now Dan speaks up…“Ebare chol...amake jete hobe”...
“let’s go...I have to go somewhere”. Dan aka Piku…my oldest friend...since school days… a dapper in jeans and casual Tee’s…solid…stoic Man U supporter…uber cool…

Most silent member of our fabled team, Jico now replies “Dara jabi…Kak r Gari ache”…“We will go...Niladri has a car…”…Jico aka Ritam…a silent guy...with a wicked sense of humor…we call him the last known polar bear in Kolkata…

I was silently picking up their talks…smiling…laughing…it seems so similar to our long lost days...days of togetherness...days spent far away from our know city...our family….we were in Bangalore…We had celebrated everything together…birthdays...treats…fully faaltu parties…any damm thing which could celebrated in a grand way...
I played a very small insignificant part in that…
That was three years back…

“Hey”…A loud thumping noise…
“Say something” not so amused Team member asked…
I looked up…trying my best to get back to the present tense...eyes focusing slowly on a black VOIP… an unknown number flashes there…a faceless client demanding explanations…right NOW!
Air conditioned room…opaque glass panes…a white board with business model diagram…few neatly arranged chairs…a flickering laptop…business jargon…verbose technical talks...Everywhere…

I am back…
I am in the Silicon City...in midst of a client call...curious eyes look at me…they thought I was sleeping…
Winds…warmth…adda…known faces has vanished into wilderness...the tingling sensation of joy for being with your family and friends has disappeared…they are now replaced by a feeling of agony…a pain of separation… from My family...from my friends…from my city…those narrow gully’s…sweet shops near Garia Mor…Sobuj Dol ground…the strange smell of my house…the eternal sunshine on my Mom’s face…the unspoken warmth in my Father’s tired face haunts me...I need to come back… I have to…

I slowly try to regain my composure and mumble…“Could you please repeat that again!!”

I close my eyes again…they are waiting for me…

Sunshine Days

Winter. Almora

Early morning…I just woke up from my deep slumber. I felt drowsy…sleepy. I felt terribly tired...slowly picked up my jacket from the hanger.

I came here yesterday evening for a couple days stay. Had a long bus ride from Haldwani, where I was staying with my brother. Six hours of bus ride had, drained of my energy. I still had not recovered from the back seat bumps.

Back in the City of Joy...I was always a late riser.

But something is very special about Almora, its air...its festivity...people...it’s old temples...old stoned carved roads...small groceries...the bal-mithai shops, where everyday people would gather not only to buy but also to share their stories...of pain...of love….of everydays ordinary life...like it always has been for centuries.
I never wanted to waste a single moment in lazy thoughts there…I always had something to see, to explore, to smell, to touch, to wonder…to fill my lungs with fresh oxygen..

I was staying in a small wooden cottage behind the army cantonment in Almora…covered with forests....It is a perfect location for spending days in solitude…no noise....no traffic…no pollution...no exams...thousands of mile away from my dreams, aspirations...I was tired of chasing them.

I took a chair...opened the window….small wooden window…no grills.
Took a deep breath and sat down.
It was a kind of foggy day…sun was slowly rising above the horizon…sparkling rays were playing hide-n-seek in my corridor…I could see the rays falling in deodars in front of my window…couple of squirrels were at their fighting best…calm...quiet...serene.

I had a peculiar feeling…I was happy…I was dreaming..

I looked up.
I could see the narrow winding road down mountain…serpentine...I could see it partially…covered with trees on one side and a steep gorge at another. I could also see little children in their smart uniform going to school...Couple of Army Truck...few cycles..life as usual..

I could also see her...standing in the roof of her small house on right of my window...she was the daughter of a local grocery man...fondly called Lala-Ji by all..
She was drying her hair…standing at the edge of the roof…empty bluish sky...morning sun had just risen enough to fill the color palette by a shade of orange...but still there is a chill in the air...sometimes razor sharp winds cuts through your woolen clothing’s…there is an nothingness in front of me...

As far as I can see..only lush green mountain landscape..

I put my hands outside the window…trying to get some vitamin D on my skin…

Again I see her….she is now drying up lal mirchi on a small jute mat…
She looked stunning…as beautiful as the mountain in front of me....pure…unknown…ethereal..

So near...but yet so far…as wind blows…her hair falls across her forehead...

she had already become a part of the wintry sunshine morning..

Cring Cring….
Door bell rang….
I looked at my watch…7.15am..
“Who will come to see me” I thought.
“No body knows that I am in Almora” I tried to be rational.
I went up to the front door…and opened the door.

An old man…70 plus…Wrinkled face, broken specs, a perfect kumaoni topi on his head, maroon crumpled sweater…his skins reflected the hardships in the mountains..a jhola on his shoulder..
“Yes”. I said in softly…
“I am Kisen Lal….Postman”…he replied..
“I was passing by… saw windows open...” he stopped to take his breath.

“No one comes here now days. Earlier a bengali babu stayed here…I was his friend…” he said feebly.
I immediately knew...he was talking about my Grandfather…
“I am his grandson”...I responded with a smile.

He stood there…motionless...probably wondering and trying his best to relate me to a long lost friend....ages had passed…since he last saw my grand-pa...suddenly his eyes lit up...probably there was tears too..
Like early morning dew…lit up in a perfect sunshine.

He hugged me.

Fifteen Minutes

I am standing against a small ridge overlooking the majestic kanchanjangha.
Though not much can be seen now. Cloud has covered everything. The Sky has taken a pale grey, murky color comparable to the water of the Bay of Bengal. Flashes of lightning piercing through the cloud can be seen now and again.

I look again..patches of green everywhere. Cold, damp chilling wind is blowing against the rain swept slopes. Incessant sound of rain drops falling onto the leaves, creating a beautiful sound. My hands are wet in rain, socks are soggy.

This place is unusually calm, but still one can hear the distant sounds of birds, unknown insects buzzing all around. An earthy smell of rain drenched soil percolating through my mind.
I keep on walking.

It was Sikkim.It was in June. Monsoon. Whereas most of my friends in kolkata were enjoying their mach bhaja with khichuri in a much deserved break after the prolonged Higer secndary examinations, I was trekking somewhere near pemayangtse, in west sikkim.

I was staying in a PWD bunglow in pemayangtse. Just over the top of the hill, sorrounded by the magnificant peaks covered with snows. When morning light falls upon them, it looks like vanilla ice cream. Half frozen.half molten delight.
In clearer weather one can also see 7000 plus peaks all around.360 degrees of panoramic view.

The view in monsoon was also surreal. I always liked travelling to the Himalayas during different times of the year. It showed me different aspects of the mountain and its people. Just on the other side of the Bunglow, there was a small garden. Where you can find all types of flowers, jasmine, lavender, primrose, orchids, chrysanthemum; dripping in rain water, after a long summar in mountains it was their time to celebrate the rejuvinating downpour. On either side of the entrance to the Bunglow, huge cedar, pine, deodar trees were silently meditating.

I was walking towards Upper Pelling. A small hamlet at the edge of the mountains. It is quite a popular place for the tourists. During peak season, this small village-town gets flooded with people from different parts of the country. But in monsoon, it is deserted, few half mad trekkers and foreigners searching for the Path of Buddha could be seen.
Just behind the Upper Pelling road, there was a small market. Typical pahari market. Cold, old and empty. Couple of strayed dogs, an old porter smoking a beedi, few bengali tourists in search of bengali hotel could be found. I was going to the market. I needed to make a STD call to kolkata.
I was walking cautiously, roads are wet, slippery. A misty fog covered the entire strech of road, hardly 10-20 meters of road were visible.

I was walking for about an hour now. Market was nowhere to be seen.
“Is this the road?” I asked myself.
“Yeah have to be this” I thought.
But I need to reach the market before 10am. Otherwise, I will not be able to return before noon. “But whom to ask?” I wondered.
In another 15 minutes, I will be in Pelling market I told myself.
Someone was coming on my way. I can see. Distant, slowly moving figure. Must be another trekker. Because this road, was taken generally by the trekkers who were moving up towards pemayangtse.
I watched the person to come out of the mist. Gosh..It was a girl. A extrodinarily pretty girl.

She was smiling!! or was she?
I looked at her..she looked somewhat of my age..slightly built..wearing a blue sweater and light bluish windscheater, matching knee high blue socks.
I kept on looking at her..she had pinkish cheek.
“Shall I ask her about the direction? Have to.. no other way..” I told myself.
She was on a slope, slowly coming down towards me. Empty road, apparent silence everywhere. Sky seemed to be getting dark again.
I slowly walked towards her..My heartbeat had already picked up..She stopped..looked at me..and said “Lost!!” in an amusing tone.
“Ha-yes”.Goodness..I had mixed up my reply..in hindi and english..
“Come on speak something” I thought.
But I was still admiring her beauty..unbelievable..so simple..yet so innocent.
I regained my thought and hesitatingly asked, “Is this the way towards Upper Pelling?”
She nodded..Was that Yes or No..I wondered.
I looked at the road and said “I was walking for an hour..and then I saw you & thought…” my throat had dried up already. I was feeling a kind of cold, tired.
She smiled again “You are walking in wrong direction...this road is goes to Pelling Monestry..I am going towards peling..” she fell silent.

The thought of walking with her excited me.
“Can I come with you?” I mumbled.
“Sure”she said. Still that smile...decorated her face.
We were silent again..Not much of topic to talk about..I guess.
She broke the silence.
“We need to walk fast, the drizzle has picked up again”..
“Is it ?” I wondered..I was lost in time.
We picked up pace..
That was the best fifteen minutes walk for me ever in my life.